Well, at times, shockingly hard.

Sometimes I feel like a machine that’s running full on, without stopping. Without a doubt a spare body that I could charge over night and then use in the morning, would come handy. The other night I found myself standing with a baby in my arms but could not remember how I got there.

Today I counted that I have to feed the babies around 16 times in 24 hours. No wonder my older son gets frustrated and often is very naughty trying to get my attention. I try very hard to make him part of everything and every spare second I spend with him.

For the first time in my life I say yes to any help. I still want to be a good mum and give my children enough attention on the emotional level, too. I try to be affectionate as much as I possibly can while keep reminding myself what’s most important.

Cleaning my house is now replaced by a quick vacuum once or twice a week and hair straightening and eyebrow plucking is now down to a very speedy morning shower.

What else can I say?

Life is great. I’m so in love with my gorgeous children that I could not possibly want to change this for anything else in the world. I’m not perfect and have had many ups and downs, but I will not give up and will remain positive and happy.

I love being a mum!

 

Martina